Day 352

This year (2011) I have experienced a wide variety of emotions and events, but over all, 2011 can die. Id rather forget it, except it has made me a better person in many ways...like dark nights often do. I expect, or hope, rather, that 2012 brings better things, because some of those things are already in the works. Our coming baby I know will be a life changing event. I have been living a healthier life style diet-wise. I am on my way to my goal weight. I am going to read more this coming year, which I am looking forward to. I hope to strengthen relationships this year, because I think too many people spend too much time in shallow waters, when we need to work on honesty, love, communicaton, depth, stuff like that.
Maybe Im just talking out of my butt.
Happy new year, everyone. Take care. Love you.

Day 351

We are in and partially unpacked...thanks to my in-laws. They did so much to help us out.
Tonight we saw Tin Tin in the theatre. I really loved it. Good for both adults and kids. Amazing animation. Funny dialogue. All that good stuff.
Its after 2am so I am off to sleep. Take care.

Day 350

With the help of my inlaws, we finished moving out today. We are also almost finished cleaning up as well. Now to unpack and set things up. That will be a challange but fun.
I start working again tomorrow. I hear its been really buay there so they need me to work some afternoons.
I hope youre all doing okay. Take care of yourself. Love you.

Day 349

Writing from the highway. We have about 2ish hours till we arrive in Saskatoon. I am looking forward to getting home. Unfortunately we have to move apartments over the break, but it will be a good move. A second bedroom will come in very timely for the arrival of our baby.
Well, tonight I hope is a good sleep. As good.as the air mattress was that we slep on, its not as good as sleeping on our own bed. I havent decided whether we will sleep in the new apartment or our old one. If we dont get curtains up we will definitely be at our old place tonight. Maybe I will be up late working on that. I want our new home to be a nice, comfortable, presentable place for my wife and daughter.
Take care, everyone. Love you.

Day 348

Christmas was a bit distracted this year. Ive been distracted by our looming move, some stuff I need to talk to people about when I get home, and various other things. I know that isnt much detail, but its not super important to the post.
It is getting late, and we are hoping for a later start tomorrow. Thanks for stopping by and reading over the holidays. Love you all. Take care.

Day 347

Hope everyone made it through this Christmas in one piece. Im having trouble not thinking of all I have to do when I get back home, but I know it will all get done.
Take care everyone. Love you.

Day 346

Christmas eve was pretty quiet. We went out to see "santa" fly over town and then went to check out the lights at a guys house who decoratea the crap out of his place and people come and walk through his yard and check all the lights and stuff out.
Have a great Christmas day. Take care.

Day 345

Madr it to my brother and sisters house in AB. It is good to see everyone. The kids are getting more and more excited for Christmas morning. I cant wait to have kids old enough to enjoy Christmas. That will be a good time.
Anyway, enjoy your holiday. Stay safe and have fun.
Take care.

Day 344

Time to end another day. My parents are staying ovetnight. Everyone is sleeping, including my wife beside me. I love listening to her sleep.
Looking forward to the get-away this weekend. This past week has been a bit of a gong show as far as communication and under/misunderstanding people goes. Tis the season.
Take care all.

Day 343

Tomorrow is my wifes last day of work before she starts her Christmas holiday. I am very excited for her because she works so hard. It is too bad we have to move over the break, but it will be worth it. It will be an easy move as far as moves go.

**Edit** I don't know who read it already, but I wrote this big post last night, complaining about stuff, and when I woke up this morning I just didn't want it on here any more. Yeah, it's how I felt, but I just don't want it on here. The paragraph below is the last thing I wrote, and you can sort of tell that I was in somewhat of a defiant mood. Anyway, I forgot to actually give the information I said I was going to. I'll add an edit below as well.

Oh, by the way...I told you I'd give you more information about our ultrasound. Some of you may not want to hear about the baby anymore. Well, I am sorry you feel that way, but too bad. I am extremely excited about this. I realize obviously that my baby isnt the first one, or that I am not the first father-to-be, but these are my experiences, and I will share them with those who care/care ot listen.
I am really sleepy now. Im not so sure if this is going to make any sense. Take care.


**Edit** The ultrasound lady told us that she was about 80% sure that it was a girl. Watching the little one move around was such a great experience. Both my wife and I wished that they would give a dvd of the ultrasound, but that's probably a long way off. They might do it at those fancier places, but we didn't want to pay for an ultrasound that makes your baby look like a clay monster (the 3D stuff). Anyway...yeah...so probably a girl. I am very excited about it. I would have been excited either way though, just so you know. So if the ultrasound lady was wrong, and we end up with a boy, great. Either way, I'm happy. The private parts don't really matter to me.

Take care, everyone.

Day 342

Reading is the activity of 2012 for me. In advance, I'm letting you know that my new years resolution is to read more books and to get to my goal wieght of 190lbs. The weight loss is a fairly big goal, but very doable. As for reading more, I haven't come up with a specific number of books, or if I should go with pages read or what. Let me know what you think, and of any book recommendations. I will start making a list now.
Take care everyone. Talk to you later.

Day 341

I think I may have felt our baby moving around my wifes belly. If it was my imaginaton, it wont be long till I really can.
I have some ultrasound pictures to post, but not for a day or two.
Thanks to all of you who share in our exitement. It means a lot to me/us. I am sure Ive mentioned this before, but when we miscarried last spring, the one thing I tried very hard to do was not to isolate myself from people with babies or pregnant people. I encouraged my wife not too as well. As a result, bitter roots havent been able to take hold. We openly celebrated with people, and I think in hindsight it meant a lot to them. I cant imagine not having shared in their excitement, as you've shared in ours. It's the case especially with those close to us. It is a very special, and at times very difficult time (pregnancy and early parenthood) and it is nice to be a part of that in my friends lives. So, all that to say...thanks for being happy for us. Thanks for the support.

Day 340

Yeesh, I shouldnt lay down for the night thinking I will blog from my phone, because I pretty mich always fall asleep. Is everyone looking forward to Christmas?

Day 339

Sorry, today was a bit of a busy day. We even took a last minute drive to Tisdale to surprise my family for supper, then came back tonight. It was fun, but my wife was so tired by the end of the night. I felt bad for her, and probably from now on should cut back on the spontaneity, especially when that includes late night driving.  She's a trooper, to say the least.

I will fill you in in stuff either tomorrow or the next day. It's been a good weekend so far. Take care, all.

Day 338

Everything is good. I will catch you up later today hopefully!

Day 337

Another day down. Tomorrow morning (might have already happened by the time you read this) we go for the 20 week ultrasound. If all is well this will be the first and final ultrasound.
I would be lying if I said I wasnt a bit nervous. I just want to know that little one is healty and growing and safe.

Day 336

Hey, an actual on-time blog today!

I don't know if I mentioned this before, but I'm going to talk about it again. Remember when I was talking about having a hard time getting into the Christmas spirit? Well, I was listening to a friend talk the other day, and she said something that was actually quite freeing. I don't remember the exact wording, but the gist was that there was pressure to be a certain way at Christmas, to get into a 'sprit' of sorts (probably the same spirit I was talking about). She basically said we didn't need to get into a spirit, and that this season is what it is. If you're sad for the season, you're sad. If you're happy, you're happy (this is a very loose, and interpreted paraphrase of sorts...the message I got out of it). Essentially, for me, it was freeing because now I don't feel pressure to get into the Christmas spirit, because whatever spirit I am in happens to be the Christmas spirit.

That being said, Christmas has been getting progressively more difficult for me over the last few years. I don't know if it's because of age, depression, memories of fights while decorating the tree, now missing my grandmother, expectations of the season being beat up with reality, or whatever. Still, the season is special to me, because of the hopeful nature of it. Whether that means hope in the goodness of men and women, or hope that Christ gives us, or hope for a new start with friends or family that you've been temporarily or permanently estranged with, or hope of any kind. Maybe you think it's silly. Whatever. I think it's your loss if you don't have a hope in anything. It's what keeps me going. I think it's what keeps us all going in some way. Am I wrong? Whether it's religious hope or not, there's usually a hope of some kind in peoples lives, right?

I'm probably not making much sense today. I hope you can enjoy some or all of this season. Take care. Love you all.

Day 335

Looking forward to this Christmas/holiday season off of school. There are a few fun things Ive been meaning to get at, so it will be nice to feel like I have the time. Photography and guitar play are a couple. Also a to do list. It will be nice to tackle that as well.

Day334

Finished studying for the night. At the moment I am feeling pretty decent about my final except that it is really late and I am going to be quite tired tomorrow. I will have to get through the day by consuming a lot of coffee.
I probably mentioned this before, but I am really looking forward to the break coming up. I have a bunch of stuff to do this week, and it will be great to get some stuff done.
Anyway i think I am done here now. Take care.

Day 332 AND 333

Sorry, I know, it's probably cheating. It's been a strange day or two, and we ended up having a "camp out" on the air mattress last night in the living room, and I fell asleep before I blogged. We ran around the city with my parents so they could do some Christmas shopping. It was good to see them, but I'm really looking forward to the actual Christmas break, and the drive out to Alberta to see my brother and his family. I am hoping that the roads are good and that the weather doesn't ruin our travel plans. That's the biggest thing about the winter that I don't like...ruined travel plans. Other than that, I can deal with it. We went to Fuddruckers for supper. I was craving fries, so I got a salad with some chicken in it and a basket of fries to share with Jenn. Not the best for me, but it was a tasty treat.

Today has been an interesting day so far. I played at church this morning. It was a quieter morning, with fewer people coming to church. Only Jenn and I played, which is always good. She is such a talented pianist, and can harmonize quite well too. It seems like such a waste of talent and time that we haven't written songs together or just played together more.

Have a good night, everyone. Talk to you tomorrow!

Day 331

I'm really looking forward to getting away for a few days this Christmas. It feels like I have been in the city for too long at a time.

I hope your day was good. Take care.

Day 330

End of the day, and I'm off to bed. I got a little studying in, but tomorrow is a full study day. I have one more final left on Tuesday, and then the Christmas break. Looking forward to that.

I was feeling sorry for myself a bit tonight. I just want to eat a big piece of cake or have some pancakes and syrup. I'll get over it. I'm still plateaued at a certain weight, so I have to watch what I eat still. I have no idea, really, why I'm not still losing.     
Maybe I am eating something bad without knowing it's bad. Probaby not. I have been eating pretty well.

My hands are too tired to do this anymore tonight. Take care everyone.

Day 329

One of the reasons I am looking forward to not doing a daily blog is because I don't have to worry about missing a day, or being a day late for a post, etc. Another reason is that when doing a daily blog, I am tempted to complain about stuff that goes on in my day. Often that's the easiest stuff to talk about. That being said, I am not going to complain about stuff that went on today, because it involves people, and as I've found out the hard way, even if you don't mention names, or even refrain from giving much detail at all, you can still upset people. You would think that's obvious, but I'm a little thick at times.

For the most part, the day was worth celebrating, because I finished another exam, and I got to go for supper with my in-laws and shop around with my wife before going home and attempting to decorate the Christmas tree. Well, let me tell you, for some strange reason, I can't get through a year without getting pissed off at the world while decorating for Christmas. I don't really know the reason why, and maybe it doesn't matter. All I know is that it happens, and I am ultimately responsible for my reactions and attitude. I just wish people didn't have to be around me or in contact with me or that I didn't contact people. Lesson learned...ish. I am still working on it. Needless to say, we did not finish the tree tonight. We will finish it tomorrow, along with any other decorating that we do.

Speaking of Christmas, I haven't got into the spirit this year as of yet. I really like Christmas usually, but for some reason I am having trouble. Might be because of finals, or because of only being able to eat healthy food, or because this time last year my grandma died, and it's her birthday on Christmas day. None of those things I really have control over, except to make the best of them. Work hard at studying, eat well and enjoy being healthy instead of sluggish and bloated like I was for many years, and celebrate my grandmas memory. She's gone, and there's nothing I can do but remember her. Or it could be just because...I'm just not in the spirit yet. Who knows.

I hope you're in the holiday spirit, whatever you celebrate. Take care.

Day 328

Yesterdays blog, written right now, the afternoon of the day after. Sorry for the wait, everyone who still reads this. I have been a little preoccupied with studying and all that. I wrote two finals, one today and one yesterday. My wrist has had it, and I'm very glad it won't need to work that hard for a while. My next/last final is online, and I shouldn't need to do a lot of handwriting stuff, unless we're to do some, then scan it and send it as a pdf or something. If so, I'll be good to go next week anyway.

I'll write today's post today, believe it or not. I'll talk to you all later. Take care.

Jason

Day 327

It's super late. I've been getting ready for a final tomorrow. I am not quite finished yet, but have time tomorrow yet. I hope your week isn't too stressful. Take care, and I'll talk to you tomorrow after my final (Tuesday)!

Another day down, another day not studying.nearly as much as i wanted to.

Day 325

I am going to make this one short.

Today I worked the morning, in hopes that I could study all afternoon. Well, fat chance. I didn't really study at all. I'm at the coffee shop with my wife at the moment, trying to get some studying finished while she works on the power point for church tomorrow. That I got any studying at all done tonight is better than nothing, I suppose.

I have one final on Tuesday, and one on Wednesday. After those, I have one the next week, and I have lots to do on that class before the final comes. I will be very glad when the semester is over...not because it was so tough. If I was more focused this semester, it would have been much nicer. No one's fault by mine.

There are some big changes over the next month. We are moving to a different apartment unit, in the same building. It's actually just down the hallway, in my in-laws apartment. They bought a house, and so we will take the two bedroom place. We're excited to paint a baby room, and to have more storage space, and a different lay-out. There have been some frustrating things come up, with people questioning our decisions and plans, etc, but I am dealing with that.

That's it for now. Take care, everyone. Thanks for stopping by.

Day 324

A "shout-out" to my boss, who doesn't read this, but I'll do it anyway, who worked around the schedule so I could have Saturday afternoon, and all day Sunday off for studying. I'm pretty sure he is working Sunday instead of me. What a guy. He said I've covered for people lots, so I'm due for the favour to be returned. Anyway, that's it about that.


I've been studying yesterday and today, and it never seems to go as well as I plan. I study, but the process is much slower than I would like it to be. Is that how it is with you, or are you a person who can study massive amounts of material in shorter periods of time?

Tonight is our first (and probably only) Christmas party. Sad that there's only going to be one, but it's probably for the best, considering I can't eat anything at them anyway. One of the hosts of tonight's party excitedly told me last night that they have 10 lbs of carrots for me to eat. While I'm am very grateful for the effort, you can probably understand the difficulty I am having being excited to gorge on carrots at a Christmas party while everyone else is eating enough food to feed a small, yet chubby village. I am not complaining about carrots, mind you. I am simply saying that this Christmas season is going to be difficult, as it's my first with diabetes. It will be a good exercise in self-control, if nothing else. I used to say "Christmas comes once a year, so I'll allow myself to eat poorly." Now I'll have to say, "I need to eat well all the time, regardless of what time of year it is."

My body is important to me, and I don't want to treat it like a garbage disposal anymore. Actually, I'll say that I can't treat it like a garbage disposal anymore. If I didn't have diabetes, I probably still would be...especially during this time of year.

On that note, enjoy the time of year. Hopefully you can eat well. I am going to stuff my face with carrots, at least.

Day 323

His is my pathetic attempt at a beard. It is really sparse, so i just look very...dirty, or something.
It is late again. I was trying to finish some photos, but there are just too many for one night...i need sleep if i am going to study. Take care. Love you.

Day 322

This photo is from last Sunday at church, when we did a "folky" worship set. I loved it, because I love that type of music. Harmonies and acoustic instruments are very beautiful sounding to me. I have the chance to be part of two or three more music sets, which really has me excited, but nervous. I think I'll try to do them though...get my face out there as someone who enjoys and is involved in music. I am not looking for recognition and fame or anything like that. That's just silly. I just want to put my foot in the door of the music scene in the city...even if in the smallest way.

Yes, that's my Martin. I love her, and need to think of a name yet! Take care, all. Love you!

ps, Credit for the photo goes to Becky Schurman. Thanks for letting me borrow it, Becky!

Day 321

Was up late last night attempting to edit some photos, but was largely unsuccessful. It took a long, long time to upload the pictures to the external hard drive, and by the time they were finished, it was closer to 2am, and I was way to tired to do editing. Don't ask me why it took so long...I don't know, other than that there were a lot of them from a few previous shoots. On the positive side, I found a photo shoot that I thought I lost as I was searching around while waiting. Good news, because I really liked some of those pictures. Anyway, this is yesterdays post. I'll post today's during the day today. I'm off facebook for a couple weeks at least, so I'll have more time, ha...pathetic.

Take care.

Day 320

We have continued to walk through some personality stuff in a small group we have been going to for a while now. This is the sort of stuff that really fascinates me. Tonight we learned and talked about what the book called the validater personality, which is a slow paced people/relationship focused personality type. Knowing that nobody will ever fit neatly into one personality type, this is probably the one I identify with the most. One of the characteristics of this personality is that we adjust/open up to change at a slower pace than other personalities would. At first i got a bit defensive about this idea, but realise now that it is probably mostly true...although my life has been filled with change, they are usually changes that happen where the decision has been made a while before the change. Make any sense?
Another characteristic of the validater personality is that we tend not to be finishers, or task/goal oriented people at all. This is particularly difficult for me. I want to be, but it is so difficult. I am really hoping to find a goal/task driven mentor or two who can help me along in these areas...and hopefully soon.
Sorry for being such a chatty Kathy tonight. I hope youre doing great. Take care of yourself!

Day 319

At least i hink it is day 319. I will fix it later. It is a pain to check it from my phone.

It was an okay day, except i am starting to get a bit tired of working Sundays. I miss hanging out with my wife all day. I hardly get a full day with her. Hopefully it wont be for a super long time that i work weekends. It could be worse though. I am not complaining. I am just saying i miss spending Sundays with my wife.

So, just over a month till i am finished this daily blog. That actually felt strange typing that out. I need to prepare myself for it anyway.

I hope you are dong well. Take care of yourself.

Day 318

The view facing out of the kitchen. Slow day. I am in a much better mood than yesterday, thankfully. I hope youre doing well today. Take care! Love you!

Today thankfully is over. It was probably one of the worst mood days I've had in a while. I don't know why, but I was just a jerk the whole day. Tomorrow will be better.

Hope you're in a better mood than I am. Take care of yourself. Love you.

Day 316

We're going to see the midwife again this afternoon (Thursday). Although I'm generally positive about the pregnancy, I can't help but be a little apprehensive (as is my wife). I just want to hear the heart beat again, and listen to it for a long time. I want to be able to hear our little one's heart beat any time we want. I think deep down inside, I keep on expecting, or fearing, each appointment to bring bad news. We've only had one or two appointments so far. I don't know if I'll ever be completely at ease until I feel that warm baby in my hands.

I continue to eat better, and I think slowly lose weight. I mean, I have to lose weight, but the process has slowed down considerably from how fast it was a month or two ago. I am almost down under 240. I am still having trouble getting out and walking. I think I just need to accept that it's going to mean bundling up this winter, and that feels like work when I don't technically have to do it. I have also been thinking of doing winter "running" (more like walk/running", but that's just talk at the moment, and as you all know, talk is extremely cheap. We'll see.

Anyway, if you pray, pray for the health of our baby, and for my wife. She, more than me, worries for the baby. I think it is understandable, but not fun.

Next semester I might only take one class, and work full time, or close to full time. I am actually looking forward to that. I don't mind school, but working is good too. We need to start the baby stuff purchasing. I've told myself that I would never buy an expensive stroller thing, but according to some, they are all expensive. We are going to have to be very creative with space, because we're apartment dwellers. We're thinking of letting our building manager know that we're interested in a bottom floor unit, for ease of transporting baby and his/her stuff around. We'll see. If you are an inventive person with small spaces, and live closer to Saskatoon, let me know. I would be interested in getting some advice/consultation for something in return...like photos or something.

I think I've blabbered on enough for today. Love you all. Take care!

Nothing special to say about yesterday. Got my guitar back after getting a pickup installed. It as a long day because i didnt get any sleep the night before after being up all night doing an assignment. I am starting to "catch up" on my sleep now.

Okay. Have a great day! Take care.

Day 315

Up all night last night, and I'm definitely suffering the consequences of that right now.

The funny thing is that I will probably have energy when my class is finished. I need to head to the bank at some point, and hopefully my guitar will be finished at the shop. Getting a pickup installed. I'm excited to hear it plugged in

Day 314

These are my new glasses. They will take some getting used to, because their style is so different than my old ones, and because the way the lenses are cut uses new technology and everything looks different (almost closer) because they are cut on the inside instead of the outside. I think its called free form.

I had to teach myself statistics stuff today, because the web class i am taking failed to do so. It left out vital information that would have explained a lot. It was a good feeling of acomplishment....i really like teching myself things...and by teaching myself i mean i find resources online and go from there.

I hope you are doing well these days. The comments have been quite quiet these days. Let me know how you are! Take care! Love you all.

Day 313

Jammed with a few friends last night. It is fun to play through songs and do harmonies together. I should have recorded part of it to show you. Maybe next time. I played guitar, one guy played bass, one banjuitar, the other, mandolin. Fun times!

Day 312

I just payed a parking ticket online. That's a great way to do it. Beats driving to the office to pay it, or sending something in the mail. It was 10 dollars, for those wondering.

Work was pretty decent today. That's really all I have to say about that.

I used my guitar at church this morning. It was fun. That's all I'll say about that as well. I think people are sick of hearing about it. Sorry, I am just extremely excited about the opportunity.

I hope you're all doing well. Take care of yourself. Love you!

Day 311

Pretty good day. We went grocery shopping in the morning, then I worked the rest of the day till 6pm. Then I made my wife supper, and we went over to her parents and visited.

I've been feeling a bit light headed, or dizzy when I get up too fast, or crouch down to do something/get something. I'm pretty sure it's because my blood pressure has been dropping. I'm still on meds for that, but as I lose weight, my blood pressure has been dropping. It's not too low, but I don't think my body is used to having normal, or just under the 120/80 pressure. Anyway, I suppose it's a good problem to have. My goal is to get off those meds, and I think I'm on my way. It might be a while, but maybe for now I can get a lower dose. I'll talk to my doctor about that soon.

I think my wife has been feeling the baby. She keeps on feeling a sort of fluttering feeling from time to time. I've heard it explained like that before. Anyway, it's only going to get stronger from here on out. Next week week we have another appointment with the midwife. I'm really excited about hearing the heartbeat again. After that, we still have a few weeks till our first ultrasound. It just seems so long from now. I'm really looking forward to that.

Anyway, it's getting pretty late, and I have to get up a bit earlier. Take care, everyone. Love you!

Hey sorry, crappy! I did it again. I was a bit distracted as i sold my electric guitar yeserday and picked up my new Martin. It is an amazing guitar.

Day yesterday went pretty good. Ill fill you in on today later! Take care everybody!

Day 309

So i got a bite today for my guitar and amp. He says he is very interested. We are meeting Friday afternoon at 3:30 in a public location. Im pretty excited but trying not to get my hopes up. I am so pumped abot that Martin. I can taste it.

Im not sure what else to tell you! I hope everything is going well! Take care, all of you. Drive safe out there in the ice and snow (if you live in a snowy place). Later!

Day 308 Part 2

Well, I put my beloved electric guitar up for sale tonight. Now the waiting begins.

I say beloved, but I was more in love with the idea of the guitar, and not the guitar itself. I barely played it. I love my acoustic, because I have played it tons, and it has been with me for a long time now. This is why I'm going fully acoustic...because I love acoustic. That is all.

Anyway, I still haven't slept since the night before last, so I should probably head that direction soon. Thanks for stopping by, and putting up with my going on and on about my instruments. Take care. Love you all!

Day 308

I'm in class now, watching a demo of Somatic Therapy. Our teacher is actually doing a little somatic experiencing session with a student. Could be interesting.

I can't really hear from the back, because they are being quiet, but I know the student has a big fear of needles, and the teacher is getting her to park on thoughts relating to needles for periods of time. I can tell it's affecting the student. She's describing pain in her head, or numbness in her arms, etc.

Now the teacher is getting the student to focus on the last time she got a needle. I can't hear everything that is being said, which sucks, but it seems interesting. I think this is a bit like desensitization in the thought/imagination realm.

Anyway, I hope you're having a great day. I'm feeling pretty good for having no sleep last night. The coffee I'm drinking is pretty crappy, but it has caffeine in it, which is what I need at the moment.

Take care, all. Love you!

Day 307

I'm writing a paper at the moment. It's basically a response/explanation/critique/ to a video of a counselling session I did with my wife. She was my volunteer to be the client. Here's my shout out to her...she made an excellent client! Thanks sweetie! Hopefully the paper portion won't take me too long, but we'll see. It's already 10:45 and I have quite a bit to do yet. It's not really research based, so that makes it much much easier.

More news on the guitar front (like anyone cares!)...I can't remember if I mentioned this yet, but I've decided to sell off my Tele and amp and buy another acoustic guitar. There's a Martin HD-35 that I have been drooling over, and I think it's the one I'm going to get. Yes, I know it's an insanely good guitar, and probably too much guitar for ol' Jason, but it's a guitar that I will use a lot, unlike my Tele, which I hardly use. I think when I bought that guitar, I was in old guitar playing Jason mode. I thought I'd use it much more than I did. Lesson learned. Anyway, if you're looking for a great electric guitar, or a great little tube amp, or both, I have both for you! :)

A couple more things about Martin...it has been around since 1933. Their acoustics are quite traditional in shape, and very solidly built. The HD-35 is unique in that the bracing on the inside of the front of the guitar is placed slightly different than other Martins, and hand scalloped, so the guitar top can move, or vibrate more freely, giving it an amazingly deep, bassy, rich sound.

Here's a photo of the sweet lady.

The front is beautiful in it's simplicity, but the back is something to behold (You're now thinking, "Why is Jason talking about this guitar this way?") If you have to ask, you probably won't ever understand. It's okay. It's something to write about.

I think that's it for now. I have a paper to write. I'm done procrastinating for the moment. Love you all. Take care!

Day 306

I've had a bit of a strange semester. I don't think I have taken school as seriously I should have. In fact, if I'm wondering, I'm going to say that I haven't. I don't really know why, but it's been one of those 'off' semesters. I'm looking forward to finishing this one up.

I've been obsessing over the guitar I'm planning on getting in a little while. I am pretty sure I've decided to sell off my telecaster and amp (even though I love that guitar, I don't play it near enough) and get an upgraded acoustic guitar. I don't know when it's going to happen exactly, but probably in the not super distant future. I think I've narrowed down my choice to a Martin D-35. That's all I'll really say about that now, until I have it in my hands.

I'm a bit tired, and will have a long day tomorrow, so I'm going to bed now. Thanks for reading. Take care.

Day 305

I've been trying to get to bed a little earlier, and last night I feel asleep before I got around to doing the blog. I had my phone beside me, and was going to to it from that, but my sleepiness got to me too fast. Yesterday was an okay day. Work was crazy. It was nonstop people, without time for a rest or lunch. My co-worker called in sick again, so it was just me and my boss. Oh well...it went okay, just busy.

I'll let you know what's up today on today's post. :)

Take care.

Day 304

Made it through work today. My wife and I have been fighting some sort of sinus cold thing, so she has had a headache, and I haven't felt good. At one point, I felt quite dizzy, but it was fine, and the day went well. I honestly don't know why I'm telling you about our sicknesses. Not looking for sympathy points. :)

I've been thinking about upgrading my acoustic guitar. This would be a slightly longer term project...not in the next few months or anything. I'll start putting aside some scratch here and there, and slowly save up. I'll also sell my old acoustic, and go from there. I get a little obsessive about things though...so I'll research the crap out of guitars, and I'll flip flop between a few different ones about a million times. Right now I'm comparing Martins and Taylors. Each company makes insanely good guitars, but each has such a unique sound that you'd think it would be easy, but it's not going to be. I'll obviously have to play a bunch and figure it out with my ears and fingers. It's exciting, but it'll be a while.

Harmonica is going well. It will be a slow process, but fun. I was practicing scales tonight. There's something called "bending" notes, which I would like to figure out, but it seems difficult. I can sort of do it, but I need it to be day time, when my wife is either awake or away working, so I won't be annoying/waking her or others. :)

Well, it's getting a bit late, so I should get to bed. Take care, everybody. Love you all.

Day 303

One of those days. I don't really feel like writing at the moment, so I won't anymore. Sorry. Take care.

Day 302

I'll start by reminding you that I have another blog, basically that links my misterdiabetic vlogs. I do share some thoughts from time to time though, so check it out if you feel like it. I think what I'm finding is that my misterdiabetic videos aren't getting as many hits because they are regarding health and making better choices about food and exercise, etc, and people who aren't really watching that stuff don't feel like being preached to about it. Hey, I've been there. Up until I found out I had diabetes, I didn't want to hear someone tell me what to do. Well, telling people what to do is not the point. It's all about my journey...MY journey. My intention isn't to make people feel bad about themselves. I just want accountability and encouragement, which I've been getting, and it has helped me to keep going, which has been great. I also want to encourage people in their own journey toward health, if they choose to go that direction. Anyway, this isn't that blog, so I won't get into that much here. Check it out, if you would like! It's www.misterdiabetic.blogspot.com Enjoy!

Another interesting bit of news...I'm going to learn harmonica. Ha! I purchased a "C" harmonica this afternoon, and I want to learn how to play decently. I don't know where I can use it, other than sitting on the street against a brick wall in an alley, playing the blues. Actually, I just want to be Bob Dylan, with my guitar and harmonica. :) I'll let you know how that progresses. I might even post a video. Actually, I might not do a video of me playing harmonica, but I might post one of me playing guitar and singing, if I'm feeling brave enough.

That's it for now. Take care, all. Love you!

I'll leave you with this video of Stevie Wonder, singing, and playing harmonica. :) 

Day 301

I will keep this short.
Nothing much happened today. Class, some homework, hanging out with my wife this evening. That's about it...nothing super exciting. A fairly regular day. Oh, yeah, i forgot about my doctors appointment. It was a very good one. My bad numbers are all down dramatically. One of the big.ones was my cholesterol, which dropped by half. My doc was very happy about that.
Im really sleepy here. Sorry to cut this short. Take care. Love you!

Day 300

Its hard to believe that 300 days have passed by since i started this daily blog. I don't remember why i started it, but through middle i remember vividly, as it was during some of the most difficult moments of my life. Blogging, i am sure, played a huge part in my healing process. Now, for the last couple months, I've been struggling with a direction, and at times with motivation in wanting to put the time into it day to day. Anyway, you've heard it all before so I won't bore you anymore.
I know I keep saying this but I really would like to do some fun things on this blog. I don't know if that means games, or a give away, or more videos, etc. Its just a matter of making the time to do cooler things, or putting more thought into the posts.
Well, thanks again for reading day after day. I really aappreciate it. It has been an adventure, to say the least. I am looking forward to the next 65 days.
Take care, everyone. Love you all.

Day 299

I ordered new glasses today. I was going to post photos of me in different frames, but decided against it, because I find that everyone has different tastes, and I get nowhere. Nothing against your taste in frames, but it's me that has to enjoy the glasses I wear. I chose a classic black plastic frame with a vintage look, by a company called SALT.. The frames i chose are called Clark, and you can see them here. I really like them, but worried that I couldn't pull that look off. Then I said, "Self, you can pull it off because you say so". Actually, I just told myself that as long as I like them, it doesn't matter what others think. I'll still probably look for compliments, because I'm insecure a little. ;)

Anyway, I'm heading to bed. Yes, as usual, it's late. It's a problem, I know. It's something that's going to be pretty difficult for me to give up...staying up late.

See you tomorrow, for day 300. I wish day 300 fell on a better day, but Tuesday will have to do. Take care, everyone! Love you!

Strange, I'm almost at day 300. I will admit that lately i have been struggling in the motivation department. I have gotten lazy with posts. I will try hard to finish well. I don't want  to fizzle out.

Day 297 Skinny

I'm feeling skinnier today. I'm wearing an xl shirt, and size 36 pants. Don't get new wrong,it really depends on where one shops, and the brand of clothing, etc. I haven't worn a size 36 since my first year of college, in 1997.  Yup, I'm feeling good.

Day 296 (posted the day after...cheating, I know, but it's my blog. :))

Day 295

I continue my night flash series, with a piece called "Too bright for my eyes"

Day 294

About to go to sleep, thought I'd do a self portrait. I call this one, "A face only a mother could love"

Take care, all. Love you!

Day 293

Tuesday down. I felt good today. I've been feeling good in general lately. Ever since I started medication, and started eating a lot better, my energy has gone way up. I'm still very out of shape, and need to lose a lot more weight, but I'm well on my way. I just had a late night vegetable snack. One of the things I want to do is cut down on my snacking late at night. When I do snack, however, it's pretty much all vegetables. I usually steam them/cook them a bit. The difference between now and a month ago, is that now I snack because I'm hungry, not just because I am up. So, I don't feel too bad about it at all...especially because it's veggies...lots of fibre, and nutrients.

Enough about that, for now!

I'm getting more excited about the baby coming. We aren't ready at all, but we'll get there. I think closer to Christmas we'll start looking for some baby stuff. We also have to downsize our own stuff, and make room for baby furniture and all that. It'll be tight in a one bedroom, but doable. I don't care what anyone says...you don't need a huge house to have a baby in. Well, you don't need a huge house, period, in my opinion, but that's another conversation. Anyway, I'm very excited, and now that my wife's belly is starting to grow, it adds to the excitement.

That's about it for now. You all take care. Thanks for reading. Love you!

Day 291, 292

I really need to stop trying to blog late at night. It just doesn't work, especially when I had a short sleep the night before.

Yesterday was an okay day. I played my electric guitar for the first time in a while, and it was nice. I play an electric so seldom, that I'm not sure how to play it unlike an acoustic. They are much different to play, though. I consider myself very lucky to have two such beautiful guitars.

Today, again because of a short sleep last night,  I was super tired. I had a nap on the couch, but it was too long, so my morning wasted. I haven't done that in a long time. I had high hopes for today, but I won't beat myself up too much. I have to do an interview with a sexual health educator for one of my classes, this afternoon. The only think I'm worried about is the battery dying on my camera (I'm charging it now, but I'm not sure how long the charge holds). I think it takes any double a's though, so I might go pick up a small pack of those.


Anyway, tonight I think my wife and I will go on a little coffee date or something. With me working weekends and Jenn working during the week, we hardly spend a day together. We'll obviously spend time together, but not longer periods of time. We miss it. :)


I hope you're doing well these days. Take care.

Day 290

Day 290 in the books. It was a pretty good day overall. My boss asked me to come in early and work a full day. It was a great day, other than breaking the water jug lid. A mistake that could have been avoided, but it happened, and my boss showed a lot of patience and understanding. He said he was glad I didn't cut myself, and that it was bound to happen at some point anyway (as in, someone was going to break it eventually, not that I was going to).

I've been feeling pretty hungry here and there, especially between meals. I don't think I've been eating quite enough. I'll talk about it on my misterdiabetic vlogs, but I think I'm afraid of food at the moment. I'm afraid that food will hurt me, not help me. So, I eat fairly small portions, and have a vegetable/fruit snack here and there. For the most part, I've been good, but today, especially tonight, i was quite hungry. I made myself a good size veggie "stir fry" (without all the sauce...just used a tiny bit of olive oil and some franks redhot). I was told that I can eat veggies without any real concern of it having to watch carbs. Well, almost all veggies...I have to watch the starch, like potatoes, corn, etc. Anyway, this isn't exciting for you, I'm sure.

I should probably get to bed. 6:30 comes early, especially when it's 1:00 am already.

Take care, all. Love you!

Day 289

Wow, sleepy.

I find when I try to blog right after waking up from dozing off, my mind has so much trouble focusing on one thing. It's sort of a drunken feeling, if I guess what that feels like.

Enjoy your weekend, everyone.Enjoy the last couple of days will November starts. Love you all.

Day 288

Tomorrow (Friday) morning I have an appointment with the diabetes education centre. I'm not sure what they're going to tell me, other than general education on diabetes and diet tips and things of that nature. I'm looking forward to it, but I hope it's not a group meeting. It probably will be, but I hope not. I do better one on one with that sort of thing. I guess I'll see.

I also have to get up early tomorrow for a meeting, so I really should go to bed. 5:30am comes pretty quick. Take care!

PS, be looking forward to a new vlog/blog I plan on starting about weight loss and diabetes and health in general (including mental health). I'm not an expert at all, and that's the point. It's going to be about my journey toward health, away from bad habits and a lifestyle that has hurt me over the years. I don't know the exact format, or exactly what it'll look like, but I'm really looking forward to it. I really hope it'll be mostly videos via youtube.

Okay, for real this time, take care. Love you all.

Day 287

I keep in nodding off before I can think if anything to talk about. I hope you're all doing well. I'm sure I'll write noted tomorrow. Love you. Take care.

Day 286

I had a great dream the other night. I dreamt that we adopted a little girl of about three years old. We haven't been talking about adopting ourselves, but we had been talking  about adoption with friends of ours who are adopting for a second time. I think that's why the adoption thing. Anyway, back to my dream.
For some reason friends had this child with them, and she was either abandoned or her patents died,  I don't know. I fell in love with her. I mean, it was one of those dreams where you sort of can feel the emotion outside your dream in real life, but you are still sleeping. However you explain it, I felt love in mt dream. I asked her if she wanted to come home with us, and she did. The emotions were intense, and I felt love for that child. I was almost disappointed to wake up, until I realized I was laying next to my beautiful wife and had a baby on the way. I think the love I felt in my dream is the love I have for them. Just a thought. God keep this one healthy please.

Day 285

Well I'm thinking tonight about different personality types. My wife and I went to a marriage small group tonight. We will be going through four different personalities, and their needs, wants, behaviors, the way they love, the way they need to be loved, etc. It should be very interesting. I like discussing different personality types, with the understanding that rarely does anyone fit perfectly into one. Often, however, the descriptions are uncanny, and you can share a few inside jokes with a glance.
I think I'm going to bed now. Thanks for coming by to read. Love you all, take care.

Day 284

Tomorrow (Monday) morning I am getting more blood work done. I've been eating really well, I think...and I've been taking my medication, so I hope my sugar is much better this time.

I am not going to write much right now. I'm super sleepy tonight, and would like to make it to bed by 11pm. If I did, that would be a record. I just need to wait for some clothing to dry.

I know, how exciting is this post!

Day 283

It's not very busy at the moment. :) Still, it's a nice distraction from life. Don't worry, this probably won't be the only post today. Talk to you later!

Day 282

Okay, I had a thought just now, and I really hope I can stick to it. My issues, or problems aren't worth denying myself to others. Basically, I can't really be there for others the way I want to be if I'm focused on myself. That might be an obvious observation, but the idea just hit me a bit harder just now.

Anyway, I've been thinking about starting a blog about my "journey" toward being healthy. It would for sure be talking about my diabetes, but not necessarily in a "poor me" sort of way. I want to talk about diet, recipes, exercise, thoughts, weigh-ins/weight tracking, measurements, and maybe even the odd family appropriate photo...we'll see about that, though...I'm pretty shy, and I want you to be able to eat your supper after reading the blog. My hope is that it will be helpful to everyone, not just diabetics. Let me know what you think. Yay, or nay?

Okay, I need to keep studying. Love you all, and thanks so much for reading.

Day 281

Okay, I know that 280 thing was sort of unfair...but I never promised huge inspiring posts...thankfully. That being said, it was a little cheap of me, eh?

I'm feeling less sorry for myself today. From the moment my wife told me my health news, I knew that I would get over feeling sorry for myself...I just needed to go through a process. Feelings come and go/ go up and down pretty fast these days. Sometimes I just need to sit there and pout for 5 or 10 minutes, then I feel better. Today I feel my emotions are pretty level, and I am thinking through stuff in a more positive light. Sorry about my complaining over the last couple of posts, but that's what this is all about, after all. My blog will contain what I want it to contain. Okay, let's talk about something else.

I'm getting super excited for the next few weeks. My wife is nearing the end of the first trimester, and hopefully that will mean she'll start feeling a bit better and more energetic. I know it's not always like that, but I'm hopeful...and so is she. I'm also excited for her belly to start growing. We have reached consensus that she has a bit of a baby bump going on now, but I think she's afraid to say it, because some books say women usually don't start showing till a couple weeks from now. I think everyone is different. She hasn't gained much at all, yet her belly is shaped different than it was before. I say baby bump, and I'm sooooo excited by that. She's going to be an extremely cute pregnant woman. She already is. :)

One more thing that's exciting is that Jenn got in for an ultrasound right on the day she reaches 20 weeks. December 16th. We both want to find out the physical sex of the baby. I don't why, really...we just want to know.

Okay, I should keep on going with the homework. I hope you're doing well! Take care, love you all.

Day 280

280! Woo.

Day 279

I think I may have failed my first midterm (or assignment in general) since I started pursuing my social work degree. Failed, or got a bad grade. I studied, but it seems like I studied the wrong stuff. Well, I studied most of what our teacher told us to study, the specifics were all on the exam...stuff I didn't think mattered, instead of the understanding of ideas, concepts, words, etc. It wasn't worth a ton, so should still be able to recover some grades.


I continue to ponder what being diabetic means. I'm sad and angry about it, as i think I mentioned before, but I'm going to fight against being depressed about it.

I haven't had trouble watching what I eat, but it has only been a couple of days. The hardest part for me, I think, is going to be learning how to retrain myself in the emotional eating department. I am definitely an emotional eater. When I'm happy, I celebrate with food. When I'm sad or depressed, I eat food. When I'm angry, I eat. I know I've needed to work on that for a long time.


Thanks for reading again. Love you all.

Day 278

I'll just get down to it.

I'm not going to tell you what I'm about to tell you for sympathy points, or even to complain. I'm telling you because that's the point of this blog...to tell you about myself, keep you updated on what's going on, and to be transparent and as genuine as possible. Anyway, enough of that.

When I was struggling with the worst of my depression this last year, and was contemplating medication but wasn't sure, I had a few wise friends ask me "if you had diabetes, wouldn't you take medication to help you get better?" Of course, I said yes, and eventually decided it would be best for my mental health to take anti-depressants.

You probably know where this is going, but I'll continue anyway.

A few months ago, I made a decision to cut out (or dramatically reduce) sugary/calorie drinks like juices, sugary pops, etc. I held to it pretty well, and I was also making an effort not to eat as much (I still struggled with eating a bit in the evenings). Anyway, the weight started to come off...10 pounds, 20 pounds, etc. I'm not sure how much I weighed when i started drinking less calories, but I think it was around 290, maybe 285. Recently I weighed myself at 258. I was pumped, to be sure.

Go back a year-ish. My family doctor, wise as he is, gave me a blood work req because I was a new patient of his, and he wanted to see how I was doing. I put that damn thing off for a year. I had the blood work done this past Saturday morning, and a message was left on my answering machine Sunday afternoon, telling me that the results were consistent with diabetes. I got in to see my doctor on a cancellation appointment, and now I'm on medication for type 2 diabetes. I don't know if it's ironic, or just a "funny" coincidence, but there you have it.

I would be lying if I said I wasn't sad and angry about this. Unfortunately, this is the inciting incident that will force me to get my act together. If I don't act on this, my health deteriorates, and, well...you know. If I do act on it, exercise and eat well, find a good balance, etc., my life could potentially be better than before I had diabetes.

For those of you who aren't aware (I hardly am yet), type two diabetes is the type without insulin needles. It's definitely the lesser of the two, but will still require diligence, hard work, and the support of my wife to manage/control it.

Like I said, I'm not looking for empathy/sympathy. Although it is genetic, it's also a lifestyle thing. How could I expect to be as overweight as I am/was, and not run the risk of developing diabetes.

Funny thing is, that I thought I was slowly getting my weight down on my own terms...but it was my condition that was making me lose weight. I guess I was never able to do it on my own. That's one frustration I have.

I'll probably talk about this more, to work it through. I hope you don't mind. Thanks for your listening (reading) ear (eyes). Love you all. Take care.

Day 276 and 277

Well, yesterday was pretty decent, except for the jerks coming into work, but really that's not that bad. Okay, that's it for Saturday's information.

Yesterday (Sunday) morning was church as usual, and that went pretty good. I lead the worship music at church every so often, and it's something I really enjoy doing. Anyway, after church it was work, then after work it was supper at my in-laws house with a bunch of other people. That's Saturday and Sunday.

There, now I'm caught up. Sorry I've missed the last two days. I haven't given up, honestly. I hope that today I'll be back on track. Thanks for your patience! Take care.

Jason

Day 275

Tomorrow I have to get some blood work done. Actually, I was supposed to get this blood work done over a year ago, but I put it off ha ha. It wasn't an emergency...just to check the regular stuff like cholesterol, etc. Anyway, tomorrow morning (Saturday) is it. I'll just get it over with now, and hopefully won't have to get anymore needles for a while.

Things are going pretty good. Went to the Keg tonight for dinner with my wife and her parents. After that, we got cheese cake. Yum. It was my wife's favorite kind...toffee cheesecake.

I should get to bed. I might have a busy morning running around tomorrow, then I have to work the afternoon till 6. After that, we're having supper with my parents. It'll be a good day.

Take are, all. Love you!

I just needed to say it here too. We got to hear our babys heart beat today. My wife is talking to the midwife now. I'm a bit emotional at the moment, but in a good way.

Day 273

My first post written from my phone on a blogger application. Its very simple looking, but if it gets the job done, great.
This way, I can switch locations with out having to fully stop writing, our if I need to stop for a bit, and come back to writing later, that is fine. I can also write when inspiration strikes, instead of trying to remember and inevitably forgetting.
I'm sitting in the parking lot at Sobeys at the moment. I just got a few essentials.

Tomorrow (probably today when you read this) we're going to our midwife to hopefully hear our baby's heartbeat. I am really really l looking forward to that.

I should get going home. Thanks for reading again today. Love you, take care. If there are any words out of place, blame the new phone.

Day 272

Funny, I'm back in the same chair, writing the same paper. This time, however, the paper is due at 9am, so I have to finish it. My brain seems to be doing everything in it's power to avoid writing, even though I know I need to. I will finish it, but it's a painful process at times, especially when it comes down to the wire like this. I never have worked well when there was no pressure. I need to make that change, because it's not fun to only be able to work under pressure.

Anyway, after this paper is finished, it's on to going through another unit on my web class, then studying for a midterm quiz next week. I am not going to cram for that quiz, so the plan that I will follow is to study on Thursday, Friday, and Monday for sure. Maybe even the weekend after work.

Okay, I have a paper to finish. Thanks for stopping by. The comment board has been pretty quiet these days. I suppose there's just not much to comment on.

Here's a question for you: are you dressing up for Halloween? If so, what/who?

Day 271

I'm on a chair in my living room trying to work on a paper. I've started taking notes from resources. I'm terrible at starting papers, and have a slight procrastination problem. I know, I've already mentioned that.

Considering that thanksgiving weekend has wrapped up, I thought I'd share a couple of things I'm thankful for. First, I'm thankful for my wife. I have probably mentioned it before, but it's a tragedy that most people don't get to see how funny she is, or experience how loving and understanding she is. She's pretty quiet around larger groups, and I consider myself extremely lucky to know her so well. My wife has shown me more understanding, patience and love than I deserve, and I can't imagine marrying anyone else. My prayer for her is that she would be able to find a close friend that would invest as much into her and she would into that friend. A non wishy-washy, steady friend. One that phones just to see how she's doing. One to go on women's night outs. One to pray with her/for her. I great friend, I guess is what I am trying to say. I guess lots of people don't really have that, but that's what I want for my wife.


The second thing I am thankful for is the fall. The weather, and the mood, I appreciate both. It's weird, but autumn brings somberness and introspection at times, and I like both. I could probably just drink coffee and stare out a window for hours, and get lost in my thoughts. There are dangers to this, however, and I must be careful. Autumn also brings cheer. When the weather cools, my mood immediately improves. I just don't like the heat, as all of you know. My wife and I went for a walk this morning, and the cooler air with the warm sun mix was close to perfect. That, and watching the trees hang on to their leaves has been nice as well. If you ever want to sit over coffee and co-introspect with me, just give me a shout/fire off an email/text.


I think I should leave it at that. Of course there are many more things I'm thankful for. I don't want to get too cocky. :) Seriously though, I love and appreciate you all. The idea that there are many people who come here day after day, or week after week, warms me. Your acceptance to my openness has been an encouragement to me in a big way. Thanks so much.


Take care.

Day 270

Aaaand I'm back! Ha, pathetic.

I shared in church today about the stuff I've been through in the past year. I felt like I was just repeating myself, because I've shared pretty much everything on this blog. Then again, I'd be arrogant to think that everyone reads this blog! :) Well, based on the stats, I know roughly how many hit I get per day, and it definitely isn't everyone.

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Ha ha, wow, I fell asleep again, and I'm just clicking on "publish" this morning. I have to get myself together!! I'll post earlier on 271, I promise!

Day 269

Did it AGAIN. This time I forgot I did it. I remembered that I was to tired to write anything, but then forgot that that happened. Anyway, sorry. I'll post this in lieu of yesterday's post.

Day 268

I'm making cinnamon buns tonight. I haven't done that in quite a while. I used to make them quite a bit in college when I had my own apartment, and have people over to eat them. Cinnamon buns, and regular buns. It was very relaxing for me, and a way to avoid homework. :)

I work this weekend again, of course, but I wish I had it off for thanksgiving weekend, and for homework. I have a paper due on Wednesday. Oh well...I'll make due.

Bla bla bla, boring again. If I just made the time, and posted photos and did some fun stuff, eh? I think I've said it before...I might be doing the bare minimum these days, just go get through. I think it'll get better soon...at least I hope it does, for your sake!

That's about it for now. I have to go put the cinnamon buns in the oven. Take care, all! Love you!

Day 267

Oops, I did it again, I fell asleep before I posted.

I got a new phone. I decided I would try android power this time. Don't get me wrong...I like apple, and iPhones are pretty sweet for what they do...I just wanted an android. I don't think any of you care, so I'll stop.

Oh, just one more thing...for those of you who are wondering, I got the Samsung Galaxy S2.

Okay, that's all I'll say about that for now. No wait, one more thing. Don't go thinking we spent unwisely just because of the fancy phone. We saved our pennies, literally. Also other spare coins, tip money, and a few dollars here and there over the last few months. I've been trying not to care what others think, but we definitely have been trying to be more financially responsible. That's a habit that you want others to have as well...financial responsibility. We have a ways to go, but it has definitely improved.

My parents are coming through this morning for breakfast before they continue through to Alberta. I wish I could go, but an assignment and work are holding me back. One of these Thanksgivings I'll make it out to my family.

I'll stop there. I'll post later, for the actual Friday Day 268 post. Thanks for reading! Take care.

Day 266

Ninety Eight days left after today's post. No, I'm not going to count down the entire time.

I've been obsessing over phones lately. It's sort of a personality thing, mixed with a falling into the consumer trap thing. I'm not too worried about spending too much though, as we've been saving up for new phones for a while now. I think I've decided which one I want, but I'm not sure about my wife yet. I'll let you know how the search goes.

I think that's really all the news I have for you tonight. I hope you're all doing great. Take care.

Day 265

This is it. It feels much more like the home stretch than it did half way through the year. Today there are only 100 posts left till the end of my year. After I finish this post, only double digits left. Strange.

Some people are really good bloggers. They can think of stuff to write, and think about. Some can make people laugh. Some can vent really well. Honestly, I'm not sure what I've done over the past 265 days on this thing. That's okay though. I'm fine with that. It is what it is. I think when it's over, I will blog with a more specific purpose, and probably not every day. Anyway, enough about that.


Spent a little time with some friends tonight. They have a really great 5 month old boy. It made me really look forward to having our own child. I probably don't need to say it, but losing our first has made me appreciate even more the idea of having a child. I value very much the life of that little baby, and I just want it to make it to term, happy and healthy.


We weren't able to hear the heart beat of our last baby. They had tried a few times over a couple of weeks, and finally decided to do an ultrasound, which is when they found out the baby had died. Hearing the heart beat of our new baby is extremely important to us. Our appointment is next Thursday. I'll keep you posted.


I think I'll leave it at that tonight. I know that baby stuff is sensitive to some, and others just find pregnancy/baby talk annoying. Okay, okay. I'll stop for now. Take care.

Day 264

I've been reading a book today that isn't easy to retain. Maybe it's just me, but I doubt it. Good ol' policy textbooks.

I don't know how people read fast. Is it something I'm doing wrong, or can only certain people read quickly and retain information? Is faster reading attainable, or am I screwed? I feel like I waste so much time. Buh.

That was my complaint of the day. It's really not so bad. I can think of many more things that are good than bad.

I'm going to sleep now. I will talk to you all tomorrow. Take care.

Day 263

We skipped church this morning. Not because we didn't want to go. We love going to church, hanging out with friends, hearing what our pastor has to say, etc. No, we didn't go because we just wanted to spend some time together, just to two of us. Ever since I started working weekends, we only see each other in the evenings, and Saturday and Sunday mornings, sort of. So, we spent the morning with each other. We did the same thing a few weeks ago. We'll probably do it again, as long as I'm working weekends. Anyway, vital information you need to know. :)

I'm going to bed. It's before midnight, so it'll be a record. Take care, all. Love you!

Day 262

It was an okay day. Work was good, and we went for supper at friends house.

I honestly don't know what to mention or talk about this time. I keep hoping that I'll be inspired and have lots of stuff to talk about. Nothing yet.

I hope you're all doing well. Take care.

Day 261

Oops, missed yesterdays. This is its replacement.

Hello. It's day 261. Nice to see you again. Day 262 will be my replacement, and I'll slip into obscurity.

Take care!

Day 260

Woo hoo! Another increment of 10 down! I'm thinking about having a party for my 265th post, because there are only 100 left after that. Who knows. We'll see. Ha ha, my life is so exciting.

Speaking of exciting, I had a thought about myself the other night. I don't think I like to commit to opinions out loud because I'm afraid people won't like me if I have a differing opinion than them. Isn't that sad? Don't get me wrong, I have opinions and values and beliefs, and will share some of them no problem...but I think the title of this blog is super ironic, because I hardly share my opinions on things. At least, not on divided issues, or difficult issues. Anyway, I'm not going to start spewing opinions to alienate people. Anyway, some thoughts. Maybe you see it as being spineless. Who knows. I never was a good debate person. I always think of what to say after, and that never helps.

Let me know what you think of that. Am I being spineless? Am I being inclusive? Have I been opinionated? I can take it, I promise. :) And no, I'm not looking for validation. I'm curious what you think of it.

Anyway, we had our first midwife appointment today, which was good. My wife had some questions answered, and we got some advise that we'll adhere to. We're going back in a couple of weeks to hear the heart beat. We're not getting an ultra sound until about 20 weeks, unless the midwife is unable to hear the heart beat. That's what happened last time. No one could hear the heart beat, so they got us in for an ultra sound, and they found that our little one had died 3 weeks previous. Anyway, my wife is very positive about this one. She feels good about it. Well, physically she feels terrible, and super tired all the time, but she feels good about the health of the baby. I feel bad for her, because she's been having trouble getting the eating thing down right. She'll get hungry, so she'll eat something, but then feel ultra bloated. I hate feeling bloated...I can't imagine it being all the time. I can't imaging that feeling of complete exhaustion all the time, either. A friend of ours said that men will never understand what that exhaustion feels like. I agree completely, of course. Pregnancy is exciting, but it can be/is difficult, from my observation only. Well, I'll just continue to be as supportive as possible.

I've been thinking of starting a twitter account, or something else that I can quote or explain the things my wife says or does that's due to the pregnancy. I'll only do it with her permission, of course. It might embarrass her, which it's not the intention. The intention would be to bring humour to an otherwise emotional or physically difficult situation. It might help lighten things a little. Laughter as medicine, so to speak. We'll see. I'll keep you posted about that. Someone is probably already stealing the idea as they read this. No, I wasn't accusing you. Someone else.

I've rambled on for long enough now. Thanks for reading again. Take care, of course. Love you all.

Day 259

Another Wednesday finished. Even thought I only got about 3 hours or slightly less of sleep last night, I managed to get through the day in decent shape. There were definitely times when my brain wasn't functioning very well, but overall, an okay day.

I'm blanking on what to write about...again...sigh. Someday, I promise I'll have something interesting to write about!

I'm yawning too much. Good night all. Love you. Take care.

Day 258

I'm sorry, but it's 3:40am, and I am feeling so tired and out of it. I usually try not to do this, but I had to finish an assignment, so here I am. Bed time now. I'll get about 2 hours of sleep, maybe 3, then I'm up for the day, I think. I have a morning class, so I'll have to drink some serious coffee. I wish Museo was open at 8, but they aren't till 9. Sigh.

Thanks so much for reading. I hope you got more sleep than I did!

Take care.

Day 257

Monday is finished. Highlight of my day? I'd have to say when my boss texted me and said I could come watch some roasting if I had time. I had been wanting to see the roaster in action for a while, so I was geeking out a bit, trying to soak in as much information as possible. The process is actually a lot shorter than I thought. That being said, it's not a huge machine, so it takes longer to roast more. Very exciting for me, anyway. I wish I would have taken a picture with my cell phone or something for you to see, but maybe another time.

I've been working on an assignment due tomorrow night. I thought I would get it done tonight, but it has been taking a bit longer than originally though. That's probably a little because of the procrastination, but I'll get it done before the due time. No worries yet.


My wife went to bed at about 9:30, and here I am, writing this blog at almost 1am. I should follow her lead, and I would probably be much more happy and productive during the day. My afternoon class is going to kick my butt.

Take care, everyone.

Day 256

I'm not sure how else to announce it, so I'll just say that that my is expecting. We're extremely excited, and trying very hard to be completely positive without worrying. There are milestones we'd like to get past for our own sake, but at the same time we are trusting that this pregnancy will be different than the past. We're expecting a healthy pregnancy, and a healthy happy baby. That being said, Jenn has been quite sick and super tired, etc. I know those are all good signs, but it's pretty difficult for her as she works full time at a job that requires lots of brain power. Think of her during the week as she works. :)


Anyway, some of you already know, some of you I haven't had the chance to tell. If you're disappointed that you found out this way, my apologies. I didn't exclude anyone on purpose. One of my biggest pet peeves regarding news like this and announcements online is when people make a comment that they've known for a while, bla bla bla. I think it's sort of rude, and know most of you wouldn't do something like that. If you were thinking of doing that, however...here's your warning. :) There are the obvious people that have known from the start, like some close family. Anyway, I'm just rambling now.


So yeah, if you hadn't guessed already, this was the announcement I wanted to make (as mentioned a few posts ago). I've been dropping very subtle hints, like the number of weeks Jenn is, in various posts...but I didn't actually go and say my wife is ___ weeks along. I just said the weeks in various places. I don't know...just for something to do.


Anyway, we're super happy, but just like last time during my wife's short pregnancy, I can't help but think all the time about those who have had difficulty in trying to have a baby.


That's it, I think, for now. I'll probably share some thoughts about it as we go. Thanks for stopping by again to read. Love you all. Take care.

Day 255

Pretty slow day at work, but it was still a good day. I know tomorrow (Sunday) afternoon is going to be busy as it usually is, so it gives me good practice behind the bar. Fun stuff!

My co-worker showed me his photo album today. He has an old Olympus film camera that his dad gave to him I think. Looking at his pictures made me want to take my film slr's our for a spin one of these days. Not sure when that will be, but some day I'll do that. Should be fun.

I realized the other day that there are people who check out my blog who I wouldn't have guessed check it out. Thanks for reading! These days haven't been particularly riveting, but I'm sure inspiration will strike one of these days. :)

I think I'm going to leave it at that. Take care, all. Love you!

Day 254

I've been reading a lot lately. I am a bit behind on my research, so I would like to catch up as best as I can. Doing okay so far, but have a ways to go still. I can't imagine how much reading some people do in English majors, or going to ivy league universities, or where ever they read multiple books per week. I think I've been complaining about my slow reading too much lately. I do enjoy reading, and learning...don't get me wrong. I just have to work harder than others to keep up and get good grades.

Tomorrow (or probably today when you read this) I work again. I miss not working there during the week, which is a good sign I suppose. It's almost like I get a bit rusty during the week, and have to shake it off quickly during the weekends. That being said, I visit during the week as I study, and practice once and a while when I make myself drinks throughout my study time. Eventually, my drinks will look nicer and nicer. They taste great now, though. No worries there. :)


Bed time for ol' Jason. I hope you're all doing well these days. Love you all. Take care.

Day 253

Sorry, but I haven't made the time to post photos of me wearing some glasses. My wife snapped a few today...I just have to upload them. I'm not sure about any of them, to tell you the truth, but we'll see.

Tomorrow my wife has an edo, so we'll get to sleep in a bit, and spend some time together during the day. That will be nice, considering I work on weekends, and only get to see her in the evenings. Tonight we sat and watched too much television. A bunch of shows started their seasons tonight, so that's the reason for that.

My eyes are watering from fatigue. I should go to bed now, I suppose. Love you guys. Take care.

Day 252

Pretty sure I feel asleep before I got the post up last night. Oops. Anyway, I had the camera ready to upload some pictures of some glasses frames, but I'll just do that today sometimes. Yesterday was a decent day. I've been frustrated with how slow I read. I need to do some catching up reading, but when I sit down to read, it takes me forever to get a little reading done. It's been one of my challenges through my post secondary education. Sigh...oh well.

Anyway, I'll post later today as well. Take care!

Day 251

It's supposed to be really hot again later this week and over the weekend. I'm not going to complain, because I know the weather will turn in my favour just after that. I also know that many people like hot weather, and it'll be nice for them.

Earlier this evening I did some pictures for my brother and sister-in-law. It was fun. We stopped at a couple different locations...one with a pond and nice trees and all that, and we walked downtown a bit as well. Hopefully they'll be happy with the results.

Tomorrow is Wednesday. That's special, isn't it? I thought so.

Have a great day, or evening, depending on when you read this. I have class Wednesday morning, then I'm reading in the afternoon...unless I fall asleep. I should get used to doing stuff on no sleep. I would be much more efficient if I could do stuff both night and day. Well, down the road.


Hey, it's basically only 8 weeks or so until the Christmas season starts. Okay, maybe that's a little early. I'll stop being silly.

I'm tired, and not making sense. I love you guys! Take care.

Day 250

Even thought it is not that special, there's something about post 250 that I like the sound of. I think that's all I have to say about that.

I started looking at new glasses frames today. I'm about 2 years overdue. When I had my eyes checked out last month, the doctor told me that one of my eyes change, but didn't necessarily get worse. Something about astigmatism getting worse but eye site getting a bit better? I don't know about that stuff, so I'll just say yeeeeaah, that's the ticket. Anyway, my eyes had been bugging me a bit, and now that I'm back to reading for school, I'm starting to really notice it. All that to say, time for new spectacles. For the last 2 glasses I've owned, they've been a very similar look. Dark, brown plastic frames. I like the look, and I think they look good on me for the most part. I'm wondering, though, if I should get something different. So, what I'm going to do is "borrow" a bunch of glasses from a local place, and take some pictures of myself wearing them all, and get your opinion as to which ones look best on me. Look for that in the next few days. I'm hoping Wednesday afternoon, but could be as late as Friday. Anyway, it should be fun.

I also just want to mention something that's on my mind. I find marriage to be extremely rewarding. It's often very hard work staying on top of communication, and not being selfish a lot of the time, but the benefits far outweigh the work it takes to see those benefits. I have very much been enjoying my wife's company these days. I always have, but I've been appreciating it more lately, and I think it's because I work on the weekends now, so I only see her in the evenings or in the morning before her work. Well, I don't think that's the only reason, but I'm sure it does help me appreciate her that much more. Anyway, I love her.

That's it for today. Thanks again for reading. Love you all. Take care!

Day 249

I just watched Rise of the Planet of the Apes. I'll save you the review/critique, because I suck at doing that. I will say that I enjoyed it quite a lot. If you're interested in reading movie reviews, my brother has a blog, and he reviews movies regularly. His blog is called In a Darkened Room. The link is also in the column on the right side of this site

It was a good day at work this afternoon. We were quite busy pretty much the entire day, which made the day go by pretty quick.


Tomorrow and this coming week in general is buckle down time for reading and organizing myself. Often at the beginning of the semester I have trouble getting off to a great start as far as organizing myself goes. I don't know why...I just do.


I need to go to bed. One of the habits I need to break is going to bed much much too late. All of the things I do at night I could easily get done in the day. I think it's because I like the peace of night. My wife is sleeping and safe and I like that. The street gets much quieter, which I like as well. I know it's quiet if I can hear the ringing in my ears. I have it constantly. Anyone else?


Good night, all. Thanks for stopping by. Love you, and take care!

Day 248

Work today was pretty good. I have been practicing keeping cool when it gets busy. There's no use getting frantic, or trying to move as fast as I can, because it just doesn't help. Tomorrow (Sunday) might be busier, so I will be calmer yet. I realize this is probably boring for you to hear about, but it's the stuff that's on my mind, people. :)

Not sure what else to tell you. Classes are going okay so far. I'm a bit behind on my web class, true to form for ol' Jason. When I do web classes, I tend to lag for the first week or so. I'll be reading like crazy this week, to catch up on all my reading. I'm looking forward to it, actually.

I think I'm done for now. Thanks for stopping by today! Love you all. Take care.

Day 247

Short one tonight, folks! I hope you're all doing well.

Sorry, I really meant it. Really short. Take care!

Day 246

Spent some time in a coffee shop other than the one I work at, today. A two man crew from CBC was in, interviewing a woman who was a musician, and I think thought at the university from time to time. They were talking about culture (I think specifically art culture, but maybe not entirely only art culture), and Saskatoon, and all that. It was actually an interesting conversation...at least the parts I heard. The lady being interviewed was saying how the city of Saskatoon was at a crucial point in it's growth, and that we needed to make sure art culture, and other cultures, weren't lost in the growth. She then used Calgary as an example. She said that in Calgary big business sort of took over and sort of swept culture away. I also think she mentioned that it was improving there now. I found it interesting, in part because I've sort of observed that about Calgary, from what little I know about it. I know there are areas and people in Calgary that might disagree. I don't know enough about the city to make actual statements about it's culture. As of now, I think the people of Saskatoon have been doing a good job of maintaining, growing and nurturing it's culture. I enjoy the city, and hope it can keep it's vibe. Well, not the bad driving vibe. But I think everyone says that about their city. Bad drivers. I'm beginning to think everyone is a bad driver. Some are just worse than bad.

I got an unexpected, yet much appreciated gift today. A little background information first. My grandma, who passed this past Christmas, used to always make various canned items, and jam, and apple juice, and other things. I had two favorite things that she made: apple juice (I could drink gallons of grandmas home made apple juice), and chokecherry syrup. We used to put chokecherry syrup in a bowl, add some cream, and eat it just like that. Often we'd dip bread in it as well. Soooo good. Okay, well, a friend of mine that happens to work on the same floor as my wife, passed on some of her own chokecherry syrup for me to have. When my wife messaged me to let me know, I teared up. I was reminded of how much I missed my grandma, and memories of eating the syrup came back, along with different memories of grandma on the farm. I don't know why, but when I remember my grandma, it's usually visions of her on the farm. I think those were my favorite memories. Maybe it is because my youth was simpler. Who knows. Anyway, to you who passed on some of your home made chokecherry syrup, thank you thank you thank you. I haven't said your name because I haven't asked your permission. But you know who you are, and I appreciate it so much. I bet you didn't know your actions and generosity would have such a big impact on my day. :)

I think I'll leave it at that for now. I've been chatty kathy tonight, so I'll stop. Thanks for coming by again. Keep coming by, as I think I have an announcement in the next few days.

Love you all. Take care!

Day 245

I've been surfing on something called Pinteresting, or something like that. There are some pretty sweet ideas and other need stuff on that site. Anyway, the time got away, and now I'm going to cut this one short.

I was just thinking tonight about how fast things can change in life. Maybe the changes are a long time coming, but when they do come, it seems fast. For me, only 7 weeks ago or so, life was much much different than it is now. Seven weeks before that, it was even more different...and so on and so on. When change comes, it seems to come on fast.

I think that I'm finished this one. Sorry it's not the most exciting. Thanks anyway for coming here and reading over and over again. Love you all. Take care.

Day 244

I had fun reading the comments to yesterdays post. I should do that more often.

My wife and I were talking on the couch tonight. She asked me if I felt different, or better, now that I was working and going to school. I didn't have to think very long about my answer. I definitely do feel different these days. I think my self confidence is up, and it definitely better now that I have some structure in my life. I am not too busy (I don't think yet, at least), and my life isn't too slow. I think I have balance at the moment...at least as far as work school play is concerned. I haven't made myself so busy I that I don't have quality time with my wife, or friends. I'm not bored now, or wondering what to do. At the moment, it feels right. I'll definitely enjoy it, while it is here.

I will talk to you tomorrow at some point. I love you! Thanks for reading. Take care.

Day 243

Something came up while we were hanging out with friends tonight, that really made me laugh. It made me want to ask if this something specific has ever happened to you, and I would like your honesty. I figured that we can keep it anonymous if you'd like, by just clicking the "like" box if it has happened to you, or the "don't like" box if something like this has never happened to you. Anyway, I'll get on with it.

Our friend mentioned that while they were grocery shopping the other day, they passed gas in the aisle because the aisle was empty. Just as they finished, someone came around the corner in to the aisle. It also happened to be gas of the smelly variety, so my friend just walked away before the other person got near them. My friend pretended to shop in another aisle for a while, then came back to shop in the original aisle.

Well, let me be the first honest person and say this almost exact thing has happened to be on a few different occasions. If you think less of me now, I think you have denial issues. :)

Again, let me know if this or something like this has ever happened to you at a store or a grocery store. Just click the "like" box if it has happened to you (as in, you were the gas passer), and "dislike" if it has never happened to you (as in, you're in denial that you pass gas).

If you're brave enough, or have no shame about this subject like me, go ahead and share your stories in the subject.

This is just going to be awkward if no one participates. Please humour me!

Thanks for stopping by again. Love you all! Take care.

Day 242

It's finally here...the cool weather. I think most of you who know me at all, probably know that I don't like the heat. I wilt in it. I only enjoy the summer if it's 22 degrees outside, or under. If it's warmer than that, there better be a breeze or some cloud cover. I don't get when people like giving themselves cancer for hours on end under the dangerous sun. I also don't get when people like sitting there sweating. It doesn't make sense...to me anyway. I guess power to them, if that's what they like. They probably don't get why I like cooler weather. Anyway, this week looks like it's going to be a lot cooler than it has been, which means I'll be able to sleep better, I'll stop sweating, and my body won't overheat, which in turn affects my mood. I fight it every time. I try to stay calm and in good spirits, but if it's hot enough, I always end up frustrated, annoyed, claustrophobic, sticky, brain dead, etc. I've talked about this too long already. It's over for another season I hope. As I mentioned...the cool is here now. I just hope it stays.

Enough about that.

It was a pretty good Sunday overall. Went to church this morning, which was good. After that I worked all afternoon till 6, then went with my wife to her parents for supper. Went home, and now I'm just hanging out a bit before bed. This week school will be slightly busier, as my other two classes will start. I'm looking forward to getting into the readings and assignments. I'm a little apprehensive about my research class, as it involves a lot of statistics math, which I have never done. I suppose I'll find out how it is soon enough.

I think I'm finished here for the night. Thanks for reading. Love you all. Take care!

Day 241

I was planning on eating a grocery bag full of apples, but I ended up not feeling like it. I had a few though. Our friends Erin and Daniel have two apple trees in their back yard with tons of apples left on them, so we quickly picked a few cloth grocery bags full. I'm not sure what I'm going to do with them yet. Erin gave me a recipe for apple crisp which is really tasty. Thanks, Erin and Daniel for the apples.


It's late again, and I have to be up early tomorrow, again. Sigh. It should be a good day though. I lead worship music in the morning, and get to work in the afternoon making coffee/espresso drinks. Then I get to spend the evening with my beautiful wife. That's the part I'm looking forward to most.


Good night, all. Thanks for reading. Thanks for stopping by again and again. I hope you're doing well. Love you. Take care.

Day 240

I wish I could/wanted to put more energy into my 240th post, because it's another increment of 10 reached!

There's nothing new I can tell you these days, really. Well, my classes are settled sooner than I though, so that's good. I'm taking 3 all together. I was only going to take 2, but decided this would help me down the line. I'll be working as well, but I can handle it. It'll probably be pretty busy at times, but I need to be busy now I think. I was extremely not busy for so long that I feel I need to prove myself or something. Of course, I don't need to...but I'm looking forward to having a busier, more structured fall. I'm hoping to get involved with a couple more things, but more on that later. (I need to plan it out first before I talk too much about it...I know some hate when I do that...they rather I just wait till I can say, then say it. Too bad!)

I guess I'm done for now. I hope you're all doing okay. Love you, and thinking about you (at least the ones I know who read this). Take care!

Day 239

Classes aren't quite figured out yet, but almost. I have the classes I want, but I want to switch one to a web class version. Did I mention this already? Probably. Anyway, I'm glad that's working out so far. I'm just waiting on an email from someone and hopefully it'll go the way I want it to go. If not, I'll deal with it.

I'm not sure what else is going on, or what to tell you. Things will settle in soon, as my class schedule is solidified, and I get more comfortable with work. I'm looking forward to some routine. I just need to get to bed earlier, so I can enjoy it!

On that note, I'm going to head to bed now. Thanks so much for reading today. Love you all. Take care.

Day 238

I have to shake my head sometimes at the wonder that is facebook. The strangest thing I think we see is the birth, development, withering, and eventual death of relationships. We watch as people start dating, get engaged, married, and from time to time, break up, separate, or divorce. Although I can't imagine the pain of a serious separation or divorce, I can't help but wish it wouldn't happen for all to see. For their sake mostly. I hate when relationships go bad, or when they are poison. I hate it even worse if it's repairable, but nobody seems to want it repaired. Then again, I don't claim to even begin to understand what goes on in each relationship. Anyway, I don't really know why I'm talking about this. I suppose it's just been on my mind. I'm so happy that my marriage is a good one. My wife is a strong, patient, loving woman...thankfully. :)

Wow it's late. I don't have class tomorrow, but I do have a couple of appointments. First, I have an eye specialist appointment. About a year back I was getting really red eyes, and it wouldn't really go away. I was referred to a specialist, and have been going every 6 weeks...er...six months since. It's usually fairly quick and painless. I might have to get my pupils dilated, which sucks, because my vision is really bad afterwards. I'm driving there, but might have to wait a while before driving home. In the afternoon, I have a cleaning appointment at the dentist. Should be fun.

I'm going to bed now. This is the latest I've stayed up in a while. Love you all, and thanks for reading. Take care!